Reflections
Since 2014, I have been working on various topics related to the developments in the East and South of Ukraine. The range of themes is broad. They include the impact of culture on each of us, co-existence with the war, attitudes to the war, and aspirations for peace. But mostly they are about my attitudes to those events, and my reflections and feelings about the pain of loss, loss of life, loss of home, or loss of land and other things.
Since the very beginning of russia’s aggression against Ukraine, I have been asking myself questions – whether it was easy to claim another person’s life; or what you are supposed to feel about that person in order to do it; or what the repercussions of this act are; and whether I am actually capable of commiting it. However, all of this changed after this war started. We were engulfed in horrible events, in the abominable scenes of murder, terror, when the occupiers destroyed homes, theaters, museums, and other places.
Some of my views on life and death have changed, too. My readiness to take up arms has transformed. Nevertheless, I still cannot know how easy it would be for me to claim another person’s life, and how that could affect me. I don’t feel like thinking about it, although I am trying to harden myself to the fact.
But in any case, I can avoid such experiences as I lecture at Art Academy, and professors can enjoy military draft deferment. Reflecting on how to live on, I relied on the idea of meditation, or rather on meditative monotonous work. According to various spiritual practices, it might save you from stress and anxiety, and help regulate your internal state. One monotonous activity of this kind is peeling potatoes.